a cautious ear to the mouth of your confession...

whatthehellareyoulookingfor.
it'snotthatyouhaveitallortheleast. youhaveeuphoriayouhavethecountdownyouhavesomethingisnothing. andiguesstwootherthingsthatileftout. iwaswonderingifyoucouldhelpmepassthisthingiwasgoingthrough. youknowiwasjustveryconfusedmaybeiwasthinkingicouldgetmotivationoranythingsynonymoustothat. it'snotreallywhatiwanttobeinatrightnw.
attimesiamjustsickofbeingtheasshole. iwassickofbeingtheevermockingpersonthatithinkwasandstillis. iwishyoucouldtalkmeoutofitandwellthenmaybeithinkweneedtosettleit. ineedtothinkbutnothisway.
yeahyeahihavebeengreedy.
thehelliamdamnit.

Use me as you will pull my strings just for a thrill and I know I'll be okay though my skies are turning gray..I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven. Its okay...
Remembering, everything about my world and when you came wondering, the change you’d bring means nothing else would be the same did you know, what you were doing did you know? Did you know how you would move me, well I don’t really think so...
If you want to be free I'll never stand in your way but with all that I am, I'm asking you to stay. So just hold on and it won't take long...
I miss you my friend. It feels like you're with me...
sometimes I cry but I can't tell you why. someday I'll find a way to say just what you mean to me. but if that day never comes along. if you don't hear this song I guess you'll never know...

5/03/2007 03:19:00 PM

i hope we're a whole...

there was a night when Girl had asked Guy to come with her outside. just to take a walk. Girl had problems and so Guy as well. they both wanted to get out and so they agreed to meet at a park nearby. it was almost midnight at that time. no wonder nobody was stopping them. most of the people in their houses were on the hay already. the time they met. they did not say a word. they walked passed the streets of where lovely street lights were seen; guessing they have gone to wherever. they did not realize the time, the place (of they were not familiar anymore), they did not mind. they just continued walking. even pass the highways and such roads on where one thought no one could travel by foot. Guy spoke, "you have not said a word since we met." "i 'm not sure what to say," Girl said. so they continued. Guy was whispering something. 'thoughts.. maybe thoughts' Girl said to herself. she didn't mind. at the middle of one of the few hours of the early morning, they have decided to go home. in the riddles of their silences, near their homes, Girl spoke. "what a way to spend sometime with you, i had fun. i was really glad we had that walk." "the whisper was for you," Guy suddenly said. they were speechless. at the moment, they went on. bid bye. "i also had one for you" Girl hurriedly said. good night.

the 4th day and the 7th day are for you
one of the golden 24 hours is for you
a box of penmanship is for you
the list is for you
promises are for you
thoughts are for you
crazy months are for you
5, 6 songs are for you
these are for you
words are for you
endless nights are for you
inspiration is for you
all the things are for you

...it's all for you

please take care, for me.

4/29/2007 08:18:00 PM