i really do not know why i say 2006's november month sucks.
it might be because of the many many stuff that has been happening.
big or small, it still took affect towards me.
why oh why am i suppose to put a halt in this stuff?
well maybe because i just need to.
actually, i also do not know what i need to do.
i think i need more +'s.
i need something.
though what can i do?
people change, you know.
and that's one hell ME this time.
i can't concentrate on better stuff now.
i can't do well on stuff i am (even) acknowledged for then.
i can't stop thinking of stupid whatever that's been bugging me even if i am enjoying and happy.
yes, yes.
people change.
but you know what?
i can't change.
i just say i know i really can't.
especially, going to worst.
it's about stuff that really matters.
i shouldn't be thinking about these absurd things.
crud.
they're really absurd.
everything WAS exquisite.
...then
everything WAS lovely.
...then
everything WAS..
everything WAS..
is that all i can say??
of course not.
but except, that is what i have been saying.
how could i be me?
...when i am not
how could i ask around and help PEOPLE?
...if unfortunately, myself is up with something.
how could i stop being selfish?
...if i am born that way
people change.
then again, i think i shouldn't.
why, people are there to..?
...help, comfort, stay, love, forgive, appreciate, dance with, play with, study with, enjoy life, guide, support, shout at, wave at, pound, crush, mock, yell at, shake hands with, shop with, sing with, chat with, cry with, suffer, watch with, eat with, laugh with, write about, snob others, and TONS OF OTHER THINGS
i guess, yeah.
i need to learn more about life.
i need to see the other side 99.9% of the time.
i need to deal with everything.
learn to accept and all those.
learn to let go and move on.
learn to keep and treasure wonderful memories.
learn to know limitations.
learn to seek for better things.
learn to make more wonderful moments.
learn to keep track of time.
learn to love and everything else.
learn that life is not just about what happened.
life is, as is, what it is.
now, what is my point?
i see i am not making one.
but i believe, i did.

this is the other side of me. now, i can say thank you to this november. a november that isn't done yet. a november yet to be remembered. a november that taught me a lot of things and tomorrow, will still. it's about time i make my strategy. my own. and again, it's about time i deal with myself. i don't want to learn about life that is unfair. i shouldn't see and realize these things. i must learn to live with it. i must.. yes, i think i really must.

truly i say, a november. that is.



kaye

11/17/2006 02:00:00 PM

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